Twas The Night Before Christmas......

Twas the night before Christmas and all through the house,
Not a creature was stirring not even a mouse
My stocking I'd hung by the chimney with care
In the hope that St Nicholas soon would be there

Then in a twinkling I heard on my roof
The prancing and pawing of each reindeer hoof
A sudden sound echoed from my living room below
So I crept downstairs, footsteps soft and slow.

Expecting to see Santa, imagine my surprise
To see Rob standing there, a knowing look in his eyes
My hall clock vibrated as midnight was struck
And I ran to my window not believing my luck.

Santa leapt to his sleigh and gave a sharp whistle
Then away they all flew like the down of a thistle
But he said with a wink before he drove out of sight
Merry Christmas dear Kaz, hope you have a great night.

I turned to Robert and I felt something click
As I realised my plea had been heard by St Nick
“Just for tonight, you're mine to love” Rob said
As he gathered me up and took me to bed.

Christmas morning arrived, sadly all too soon
And I awoke and looked around my still, empty room
With a sigh I remembered my night of sheer bliss
As my body recalled the touch of his kiss.

Had it all been a dream, as the church bells rang
Had it been wishful thinking, I thought with a pang
Then I gasped as I spied at the end of my bed
Rob's Christmas beanie, still warm from his head.

My Christmas Wish

The stars are twinkling in the cold night sky

Anticipation is in the air

It's the time of year when dreams might fly

And the answer may come to a prayer.

One star stands out as its shining so bright

So I make my wish out loud

I cross my fingers and close my eyes tight

And it floats away on a cloud.

Oh Christmas Star please hear my plea

Grant me my true love

Could you just send Robert down to me

From the starry heavens above.

I know he will never be mine to keep

But if I could have one night

I would wrap him inside a love so deep

In never ending delight.

Miracles happen at this time of year

So maybe...just maybe for me

On Christmas Eve, so crisp and clear

Rob's look of love I'll see.

Home for Christmas?

The stars twinkle in the cold night sky

And snow lays thick on the ground

Christmas will soon be here with us

So is Rob at last homeward bound?

Filming is finished for the holiday break

All are ready for some Christmas cheer

To spend good times with family and friends

Drinking brandy, wine and some beer!

The spirit of Christmas instills in us all

A longing to see those that we love

This will be no exception for Victoria and Liz

To spoil their much loved bruv!

Claire will be longing to hold him again

Richard to share a pint with his son

I wish them all the merriest of Christmases

With joy and love and good fun.

For My Baby Girl.

I stare at her face and watch her cries fade

As I'm blown away by this miracle I've made

For the rest of my life I will always be afraid

For my baby girl.

Her eyes stare back and I drown in the sight

Lost in her image and so with all my might

I know I will never ever give up the fight

For my baby girl.

This beautiful child I never dreamed could exist

The thought that fatherhood I would have missed

Thank you Bella for giving me my perfect wish

For my baby girl.

My emotions overflow as my heart you steal

And I still find it so unbelievable you're real

Words are not enough to explain how I feel

For my baby girl.

I Wanna...........

I wanna run my hand through your hair
Your head or chest, I don't care where
I wanna run my finger along your jaw
Then pick myself up off the floor.

I wanna feel your fingers long and slender
Caress my cheek soft and tender
I wanna kiss your lips sexy and full
And feel my stomach clench and pull.

I wanna lay beside you on a bed
As along my heart you softly tread
I wanna take you to unheard of heights
On hot summer days and cold winter nights.

I wanna experience many wonderful things
Together with you; whatever life brings
I wanna hold my dream inside my hand
And not watch it drift like grains of sand.

Maybe, one day, this will all come true
How will it happen? I haven't a clue
Until then I'll keep watching the moon above
Patiently waiting for the man I love.

Remembering Tyler.

I remember you in New York city
Standing all bloody and bruised
Silly me wanted to kiss it better
My that would have kept you amused

I remember you drinking your coffee
Talking of toothbrushes to sell
Smiling and talking in your open check shirt
A relief from your tormented hell

I remember you carrying the bed roll
For Caroline's overnight stay
You played the best older brother
In your own inimitable way.

I remember you wearing the navy blue suit
You looked so handsome and hot
Arguing baseball with your up-tight dad
Then him making you lose the plot.

I remember you in New York city
In the summer of 2009
Your role of Tyler will forever be
Instilled in me for all time.

Longing for Water for Elephants

I'm wishing for April and circus time

When Water for Elephants arrives

To watch Rob as Jacob walk on set

Completely changing our lives.

As a circus vet, the animals he'll tend

Rosie will be a such a delight

But Marlena will steal his heart away

As he falls in love at first sight.

There'll be laughter, sadness, tragedy too

And he'll roustabout with the best

His anger and fury will know no bounds

As August puts him to the test.

To see Rob as Jacob, all dirty and hot

Wiping the sweat from his face

Will be a role I'm longing to see

Causing my heartbeat to race.

No longer inhuman, just a mortal man

With all of those traits to play

Ready to love with no binding restraint

Portrayed in Rob's inimitable way.