My thoughts on recent events

I usually just keep this blog for my poems. This is a hobby of mine which I enjoy tremendously.
I write about the many things happening in Rob's life. His personal moments, his premiere's, his photoshoots. Usually expounding  how hot he is!
Due to recent events, I have decided to write about something close to my heart.
I have left it until now to say something as I didn't want anger to cloud my judgement. I will admit that my rage has now gone from incandescent to just bubbling below the surface.
Firstly, let me just empasise, that I DO NOT in any shape or form condone name calling or bullying of Kristen. This is both immature and childish and gets us no-where.

I have always been a fan of Rob. Just Rob. Always will be. I accepted Kristen as part of his life as she was his love. Anyone with half an eye could see from the many telling glances he sent her way, that he absolutely adored her. Of this I had no doubt. If anyone bullied her, I championed her cause. Why? because I knew if Rob read any of the disrespectful comments, he would be very hurt.
Through her interviews and interactions with Rob, she came across as an honest person.... with respect, sincerity and above all, integrity. She has a potty mouth and a habit of flipping the bird, which made me wince on many occasion, but I never doubted her integrity, both as an actress and as a person.
So when the picures and story came to light, I was utterly aghast. Dumbfounded. Refused to believe them at first. Kristen? No way.
Now, many have bandied about the words "mistake" and "young".
This has made me angrier. A mistake is putting on odd shoes. A typo. Giving wrong change.
She made a decision. A decision to meet a man for an illicit and intimate liaison. She CHOSE this course of action.
Yes, she is young but has been in the business since a child. She knows the score. Before she has been referred to as an "old soul." Now the excuse is she is young. Cant have it both ways people.

She has always been adamant about keeping her personal life, private. " I keep what's mine, mine" she stated. How ironic that her first inkling of how she feels about Rob should be in an apology for cheating on that love. She chose to meet this man in broad daylight, near the Hollywood sign, which will now be a permanent reminder to Rob. As you can see, I am not mentioning Rupert. He is of no interest to me. It was Kristen that was with Rob. I thought she was a strong woman capable of brushing away flattering words from a mid-life crisis old man. Seems I was wrong.

Many have stated that they hope they get back together. Sometimes this can happen, especially if just your family and close group of friends know the circumstances.
This has happened in full view of the world's stage. Up until Comic Con and the TCA's all was right with Rob's world. The many loving glances he sent Kristen's way during Comic Con is testament to that.
To then see pictures of Kristen in the arms of another man only days after, must have devastated him.
I cannot imagine the pain he has gone though. IS going through. I just hope his anger is keeping the pain at bay for the moment. Rob is also a consummate professional and to have all this thrust on him, through no fault of his own, just before the US promotion of Cosmopolis is appalling. The humiliation he must feel. If Rob can be with Kristen and not see Rupert pawing at her, he is an even stronger man than anyone gives him credit for.

Last but not least, maybe a few have forgotten, with all the "support for Kristen" going on, that Rob has not only lost his lover, but his best friend too. She was the one who stood by his side during the chaos of Twilight, the one who he could rely on and talk to, the one who knew him so well. She celebrated Cannes with him, of which he was so proud, both of his own film and On The Road.This has now been marred by the thought that maybe it was going on during Cannes. His one shining moment tainted forever. His loneliness at losing her must be eating away at his heart.

So, as you can see, for all of the above, I can never forgive Kristen Stewart, even if Rob does. I will abide by his decision though. As always.
It's just that the one person I thought would never stoop to this, the one person with the integrity and sincerity, threw it all away with her stupidity and selfishness and hurt the one person who is sincere above all else, Rob.
Hopefully, with time, his pain will ease and he will get on with his life without her. My only concern is that this will have have affected how he is. How he acts. Will that happy go lucky demeanor be lost forever? Will his sunny disposition be gone? As a naturally self-deprecating kind of guy, he must wonder what he did wrong. Why did he fail her? Was it his fault she went looking somewhere else? Did he not fulfill her? If this was the case, then she should have had a heart to heart talk and tried to work it out or broke up with him. Still upsetting but not on the scale it is now.
This is soul destroying....and for that I can never forgive her either.