My thoughts on recent events

I usually just keep this blog for my poems. This is a hobby of mine which I enjoy tremendously.
I write about the many things happening in Rob's life. His personal moments, his premiere's, his photoshoots. Usually expounding  how hot he is!
Due to recent events, I have decided to write about something close to my heart.
I have left it until now to say something as I didn't want anger to cloud my judgement. I will admit that my rage has now gone from incandescent to just bubbling below the surface.
Firstly, let me just empasise, that I DO NOT in any shape or form condone name calling or bullying of Kristen. This is both immature and childish and gets us no-where.

I have always been a fan of Rob. Just Rob. Always will be. I accepted Kristen as part of his life as she was his love. Anyone with half an eye could see from the many telling glances he sent her way, that he absolutely adored her. Of this I had no doubt. If anyone bullied her, I championed her cause. Why? because I knew if Rob read any of the disrespectful comments, he would be very hurt.
Through her interviews and interactions with Rob, she came across as an honest person.... with respect, sincerity and above all, integrity. She has a potty mouth and a habit of flipping the bird, which made me wince on many occasion, but I never doubted her integrity, both as an actress and as a person.
So when the picures and story came to light, I was utterly aghast. Dumbfounded. Refused to believe them at first. Kristen? No way.
Now, many have bandied about the words "mistake" and "young".
This has made me angrier. A mistake is putting on odd shoes. A typo. Giving wrong change.
She made a decision. A decision to meet a man for an illicit and intimate liaison. She CHOSE this course of action.
Yes, she is young but has been in the business since a child. She knows the score. Before she has been referred to as an "old soul." Now the excuse is she is young. Cant have it both ways people.

She has always been adamant about keeping her personal life, private. " I keep what's mine, mine" she stated. How ironic that her first inkling of how she feels about Rob should be in an apology for cheating on that love. She chose to meet this man in broad daylight, near the Hollywood sign, which will now be a permanent reminder to Rob. As you can see, I am not mentioning Rupert. He is of no interest to me. It was Kristen that was with Rob. I thought she was a strong woman capable of brushing away flattering words from a mid-life crisis old man. Seems I was wrong.

Many have stated that they hope they get back together. Sometimes this can happen, especially if just your family and close group of friends know the circumstances.
This has happened in full view of the world's stage. Up until Comic Con and the TCA's all was right with Rob's world. The many loving glances he sent Kristen's way during Comic Con is testament to that.
To then see pictures of Kristen in the arms of another man only days after, must have devastated him.
I cannot imagine the pain he has gone though. IS going through. I just hope his anger is keeping the pain at bay for the moment. Rob is also a consummate professional and to have all this thrust on him, through no fault of his own, just before the US promotion of Cosmopolis is appalling. The humiliation he must feel. If Rob can be with Kristen and not see Rupert pawing at her, he is an even stronger man than anyone gives him credit for.

Last but not least, maybe a few have forgotten, with all the "support for Kristen" going on, that Rob has not only lost his lover, but his best friend too. She was the one who stood by his side during the chaos of Twilight, the one who he could rely on and talk to, the one who knew him so well. She celebrated Cannes with him, of which he was so proud, both of his own film and On The Road.This has now been marred by the thought that maybe it was going on during Cannes. His one shining moment tainted forever. His loneliness at losing her must be eating away at his heart.

So, as you can see, for all of the above, I can never forgive Kristen Stewart, even if Rob does. I will abide by his decision though. As always.
It's just that the one person I thought would never stoop to this, the one person with the integrity and sincerity, threw it all away with her stupidity and selfishness and hurt the one person who is sincere above all else, Rob.
Hopefully, with time, his pain will ease and he will get on with his life without her. My only concern is that this will have have affected how he is. How he acts. Will that happy go lucky demeanor be lost forever? Will his sunny disposition be gone? As a naturally self-deprecating kind of guy, he must wonder what he did wrong. Why did he fail her? Was it his fault she went looking somewhere else? Did he not fulfill her? If this was the case, then she should have had a heart to heart talk and tried to work it out or broke up with him. Still upsetting but not on the scale it is now.
This is soul destroying....and for that I can never forgive her either.

I Gave You My Heart

                                                                      I gave you my heart
                                                                      I gave you my soul
                                                                     You were the only one
                                                                     Making me whole
                                                                     I gave you everything
                                                                     A man could give
                                                                     Now I have nothing
                                                                     For which to live.

                                                                    You lit up my life
                                                                    You gave me a glow
                                                                    How could I resist
                                                                    When I loved you so
                                                                    The laughter we shared
                                                                    Day after day
                                                                    Now just tears are falling
                                                                    Laughter's long gone away.

                                                                    How could you do this?
                                                                    Break my heart in two
                                                                    I thought you loved me
                                                                    As I loved you
                                                                    I sit alone with my thought
                                                                    Memories cloud my head
                                                                    Now I must think of the future
                                                                    And what lies ahead.
                                                                 
                                                                    I gave you my heart
                                                                   You tossed it aside
                                                                    It dropped through your hands
                                                                    When you cheated & lied
                                                                    So I'll keep it locked up
                                                                    Til  hands hold it secure
                                                                    She'll keep it next to her heart
                                                                    In a love strong and pure .♥

A Sad Day

                                                              This is your very worst day
                                                              A day you will never forget
                                                             There will be other bad days
                                                             Of sadness and regret
                                                             Life throws these damn curve balls
                                                             To knock you off your feet
                                                             But I know they'll make you stronger
                                                             So don't let your heart retreat
                                                             Inside you hold the power
                                                            Of a love so strong and pure
                                                            So don't let hate and bitterness
                                                            Deplete you of this cure
                                                            You are loved so very deeply
                                                            By your family and friends
                                                            So turn to them for comfort
                                                            Your broken heart to mend
                                                            And remember when the blues arise
                                                            And your mood is sad and low
                                                           That we have your heart in our hands
                                                            Because we love you so ♥

Edward, my Edward.

                                                               Oh Edward, my Edward,
                                                               You growl when you talk
                                                               With your shy sexy smirk
                                                               And long loping walk

                                                               Oh Edward, my Edward
                                                               Stare at me with those eyes
                                                               Like glittering topaz
                                                               Giving me butterflies

                                                              Oh Edward, my Edward
                                                              Your icy white skin
                                                              Glitters like diamonds
                                                               Reflected within

                                                              Oh Edward, my Edward
                                                              I'm lost in your smile
                                                              From that very first moment
                                                              My heart you beguiled ♥

The End Of An Era

                                               Now Comic Con has come and gone
                                               And never no more will we see
                                               The Twilight Saga together in Hall H
                                               Where the perfection of Rob came to be.

                                               For four stunning years he's thrilled us
                                               Bringing gorgeous Edward Cullen to screen
                                               With his bronzed hair and topaz eyes
                                               He's the sexiest vampire we've seen.

                                               The haunting looks he's sent our way
                                               The danger and romance was bliss
                                               Who'd forget "You'll always be my Bella?"
                                               Or that very first heart pounding kiss?

                                                Breaking Dawn 2 will be the very last dose
                                                Of a drug that will be so hard to break
                                                Edward Cullen introduced Rob into my life
                                               With a smile that made my heart ache.

                                                Even though this event has a bittersweet taste
                                                Rob will continue to make us all smile
                                                That line of his: "Keep it in your pants!"
                                                Had all the makings of his inimitable style.

                                                So it's onward and upward of our favourite man
                                                With projects galore waiting in line
                                                But for now I'm saying thank you Edward Cullen
                                                For Rob, who I'll follow and love for all time. ♥

Young Love

                                         Smiling, laughing, oh what a night
                                         Forehead kissing, holding tight
                                         Hand in hair, just cant resist
                                         He moves, she moves, lips are kissed
                                         In their bubble, alone at last
                                         Joy overflowed, they had a blast
                                         Young and in love, Rob and Kris
                                         Could life be any better than this? ♥

In Another Time

                                                           You're beyond my reach in time and space
                                                            But I'll bide my time for now
                                                            Because in my next life I'll see your face
                                                            I don't know where or how
                                                            I only know sometime, somewhere
                                                           When I'm young and wild and free
                                                            In another time, another place
                                                            I'll turn and there you'll be. ♥